Performance review went entirely promotioney. I don't know if I was worried about it - I don't think I was.

I realised on Monday that all I felt like doing was playing out some improvised music in a place where I felt relaxed. I started off by trying to find a squat or something - to do it on a Sunday morning at an after party. Didn't get much help, and then remembered how cheap Filthy's was to hire. So I got the ball rolling on the same day. Emailed, spoke to the landlord, sorted it out for next Wednesday.

A frightening number of people have said they are coming... Which is good, I guess, but they will have no idea what to expect. I've felt like I could do something like this for years - when I used to play the piano for hours, I imagined myself in a concert hall or something. Seemed fairly ludicrous, but it made me at least try making music solo (I never used to think I could do it on my own).

Recent events have given me the confidence to go out on this limb. I will prepare my instruments, but I won't prepare the music. It will come as it comes. I hope. As long as I can get into the state that I can get into at home.